My favorite pair of shoes! Dr.Martens ♥

So here I am in my room being totally self-loathing. I'll set the scene!
I lay upon my bed whilst dreaming of the day when true love knocks upon my door. I'm wearing my most comfortable clothes, otherwise known as a night gown. In the background "Air for Strings in G" by Bach plays in all of it's melancholy and lovely glory.

So now that you know whats really going on I'll get on with it :P

I'm excited and slightly nervous because next week I have an interview at Macy's! I really hope I get this job because I so desperately need it!

I've been feeling incredibly crafty lately and I think if I was to set up a small fund on the side I might be able to finally let this craftiness out! I think I want to take up stuffed doll making. I have this vision in my head of a kitschy version of Marie Antoinette. I'm excited to see if my vision will work out.

Marie Antoinette, 1780's via Flickr

Marie Antoinette and really just the whole Rococo and Baroque periods have had such a huge impact on me. I just fall more and more in love with the music, art, fashions, decor everyday. Versailles is like my ultimate dream destination. If and when I ever visit that palace I will be incredibly, ridiculously happy. I might even cry! My dream is to own a home one day and somewhat replicate the decor inside the Versailles. Of course that will take a lot of money so hopefully things work out later! One can only dream of such a lavish lifestyle!

Onwards, I have many photos to show from my past trips to Baltimore, MD and NYC!

Doorway leading to a basement. I was just taken aback by this old style. Love it!

This is a store owned by a man who is sometimes in John Waters films. I adore John Waters so this store was a must see. I was sad to find it to be cluttered to death and manned by a pretentious girl who listened to horrendous music!

In Central Park!

A bit of background: This was my very first trip to NYC and let me just say that it was absolutely amazing! I couldn't of had a time that was more amazing (except for when I'm in LA!)

It's been too long!

Walking in the snow

I made this blog and then abandoned it but now I'm back! I'm having a really rough time right now and I need an outlet.
So many things have been going badly for me and my family. I ask what I've done to deserve such horrendous karma. I don't think I've done anything particularly bad or evil, in fact I know I haven't!

Right now I'm helping someone out, and I don't have to do it but I choose to. Sometimes I get frustrated because I hate when people are dependent on me unless it's for a job or something. I just get tired, you know? Always though, I think of what I'd want that person to do for me if I was in the same situation and I forget about being upset. I am just so crazy hormonal right now it's well...crazy! I really just need a cigarette and I think I'll be happy, at least for the 5 minutes that I'm smoking heh.
Heavy Snow

So, in the past few months Pittsburgh was hit with crazy snow storms and we were shut in for about 3-4 days! The snow was crazy! I'm originally from Texas and have never seen snow in my entire life and then to be trapped in it for so long, oh it was totally nuts! I'm pretty much over the snow for the most part, I've never wished for spring more than I do right now.

Honestly, I can not wait until I'm back in Texas! Not to offend anyone but I hate Pittsburgh so much! If I meet one nice person who's actually from here and not just relocated here, that'll be the day! I'm a nice southern girl at heart I suppose. I'm not used to these Yankees and their rudeness :P

I miss my parents so very much right now :(

I'm just a big ball of unhappy emotions right now and I hope someone notices and doesn't selfishly try to make everything about them.

My Snow Angel...sort of!