Yeah that'll probably sum up what's happening right now in my life.
So long story short, my car's transmission gave out and now I have no car. It's at the car repair shop right now and they told my Mother that it would cost approx. $2,400 to fix. So I'm over here thousands of miles away from hope and totally fucked. I have to take the bus which is fine ok but the thing I've never in my life taken the bus and it just freaks me out. I feel like my freedom has been taken away from me sort of like what Cher says in the movie Mermaids. I feel like I can't go anywhere and I'm just so frustrated.
Of course, this would happen when I start my new job. I have two jobs I need to go to and no car and just the bus to rely on and it's something I'm totally not used to. I'm not totally opposed to public transportation but here in Pittsburgh it can be a bit scary. I am horrible with directions and I don't know I'm just freaking out that I may get lost while I'm out there. If I do get lost I have no one who can come pick me up from wherever I may wind up. I have NO ONE.
