My favorite pair of shoes! Dr.Martens ♥

So here I am in my room being totally self-loathing. I'll set the scene!
I lay upon my bed whilst dreaming of the day when true love knocks upon my door. I'm wearing my most comfortable clothes, otherwise known as a night gown. In the background "Air for Strings in G" by Bach plays in all of it's melancholy and lovely glory.

So now that you know whats really going on I'll get on with it :P

I'm excited and slightly nervous because next week I have an interview at Macy's! I really hope I get this job because I so desperately need it!

I've been feeling incredibly crafty lately and I think if I was to set up a small fund on the side I might be able to finally let this craftiness out! I think I want to take up stuffed doll making. I have this vision in my head of a kitschy version of Marie Antoinette. I'm excited to see if my vision will work out.

Marie Antoinette, 1780's via Flickr

Marie Antoinette and really just the whole Rococo and Baroque periods have had such a huge impact on me. I just fall more and more in love with the music, art, fashions, decor everyday. Versailles is like my ultimate dream destination. If and when I ever visit that palace I will be incredibly, ridiculously happy. I might even cry! My dream is to own a home one day and somewhat replicate the decor inside the Versailles. Of course that will take a lot of money so hopefully things work out later! One can only dream of such a lavish lifestyle!

Onwards, I have many photos to show from my past trips to Baltimore, MD and NYC!

Doorway leading to a basement. I was just taken aback by this old style. Love it!

This is a store owned by a man who is sometimes in John Waters films. I adore John Waters so this store was a must see. I was sad to find it to be cluttered to death and manned by a pretentious girl who listened to horrendous music!

In Central Park!

A bit of background: This was my very first trip to NYC and let me just say that it was absolutely amazing! I couldn't of had a time that was more amazing (except for when I'm in LA!)

It's been too long!

Walking in the snow

I made this blog and then abandoned it but now I'm back! I'm having a really rough time right now and I need an outlet.
So many things have been going badly for me and my family. I ask what I've done to deserve such horrendous karma. I don't think I've done anything particularly bad or evil, in fact I know I haven't!

Right now I'm helping someone out, and I don't have to do it but I choose to. Sometimes I get frustrated because I hate when people are dependent on me unless it's for a job or something. I just get tired, you know? Always though, I think of what I'd want that person to do for me if I was in the same situation and I forget about being upset. I am just so crazy hormonal right now it's well...crazy! I really just need a cigarette and I think I'll be happy, at least for the 5 minutes that I'm smoking heh.
Heavy Snow

So, in the past few months Pittsburgh was hit with crazy snow storms and we were shut in for about 3-4 days! The snow was crazy! I'm originally from Texas and have never seen snow in my entire life and then to be trapped in it for so long, oh it was totally nuts! I'm pretty much over the snow for the most part, I've never wished for spring more than I do right now.

Honestly, I can not wait until I'm back in Texas! Not to offend anyone but I hate Pittsburgh so much! If I meet one nice person who's actually from here and not just relocated here, that'll be the day! I'm a nice southern girl at heart I suppose. I'm not used to these Yankees and their rudeness :P

I miss my parents so very much right now :(

I'm just a big ball of unhappy emotions right now and I hope someone notices and doesn't selfishly try to make everything about them.

My Snow Angel...sort of!

Time Goes By....

Or maybe it doesn't? I just feel as though I have been working and reaping none of the benefits. I guess that's what happens when you work menial jobs. I love what I do though because I love meticulous work. I love to organize whole shelves and walls of crap! I don't know why exactly, I just get some weird comfort from it.

I was reading my old diary the other day. I was about 15 years old when I started it and I ended it with one entry from my senior year in high school when I was 17. I laughed at it a lot, mostly because my priorities were so fucked up. I wonder if I had been a different person then would I be where I'm at still or would I be somewhere better? I guess I shouldn't live in the past, but sometimes it's hard not to think of the "what if's." In my diary I wanted to be a best selling novelist. I still love writing and I would love to accomplish this goal one day! Hopefully in maybe 10 or so years I can have that accomplished.

Things in life have been somewhat weird, though not directly from my point of view. Let's just say someone is dating someone and it's been seriously awkward for my roommate and I. I don't really think about it much but he always brings it up and I'm pretty much like "whatever" about the whole situation.

I'm tired of being selfish and having everyone bend to my way. I'm going to try it out their way and see how things go. Though it's not going to be easy because ego is big around these parts hah

I asked my mother today if I moved back to Texas whether or not she and my father would help me. Of course she said yes and was adamantly trying to get me to move closer to home in Houston. My heart is set on Dallas though,but of course my heart is actually set on Los Angeles, CA. I would love nothing more than to live there right now.

Let's see how things roll.

Ahhh Shamu!

Today was an ok day I suppose. I went to work at Disney, which wasn't too bad. I'm happy I stuck with Disney instead of changing jobs.

Also, today my very good friend Kristina sent me this scary thing.



Knowing that I hate Whales and various other sea creatures because they terrify me she's evil :P haha but the worst (or best however you look at it) is on the back!


How terrifying!!! I still love it though haha. Thanks Kristina!

Well not much else is going on so until next time~

Phew

This, my friends is Ringo. He is my lovely (yet destructive) one year old dachshund.

So I suck at updating my blog heh. I will from now on update every other day ( or at least try to!)
I've been really missing my friends back in San Antonio lately :( I talk to them on a fairly regular basis but it's still hard. I sort of can't wait to go back home and see everyone during X-Mas!
So this past weekend was ok I suppose. My roommate and some of his friends went to the Little Italy festival (I think it was on Saturday heh) over in Bloomfield and it was pretty cute. We had gelato (mmmm mocha gelato!) which was really good because I was missing gelato (if you go to SA,TX make sure you stop at Brindles! Yummy gelato!). The rest of the weekend wasn't anything to get excited about. Actually, my roommate and his friend wanted to meet Michael Phelps on Saturday over at the mall but they got there too late so they couldn't boo hoo for them :( Afterwards, we went to Trader Joes and OMG everything is so cheap and good! I really loved it. That was pretty much my weekend! Exciting, yes I know!

Today, I went to orientation for my new job and everyone was really nice so I'm excited. My official first day of working is on Thursday. I'm also excited about it because it's at a craft store and I've always wanted to work at one :)
I wish it were the end of October already! I'm hoping I'll be more financially stable by then and also Halloween! I think I want to go Guro loli because I have the perfect white skirt that's dying to be splashed with fake blood ;)

So I have been in a hot tea mood lately, I had some Orange tea earlier today mmmm

Sorry for the horrendous pic quality, I always forget or am too lazy to get my proper camera :P I swear better pics next time!
Well, until next time!


Oh, almost forgot!
There was this vampire cartoon I remembered watching as a kid. My dad had rented me the video at blockbuster or some such place and I recently thought of it but I could not remember the name! So I typed in "vampire cartoon 80's" etc on google and no luck finally someone over at ONTD_TWATLIGHT on Livejournal made a post about it!

I want to watch it again!

Topsy-Turvy!

It's been awhile since my last post...whoops! I'll try and get better at this. Anywho, life has been pretty eventful these past few days since I last updated. I finally started working and am definitely hating it! I've been with this company for almost three years now and I've transferred to the Pittsburgh location. They treat me as though I have no clue as to what I am doing. It's really bugging me! So I've applied at other places because I need two jobs and I have received jobs at two other places and now I have to choose which places I want to work at so I have some thinking to do!

Right now Pittsburgh is going through the whole G20 thing and it's quite annoying! I don't care if you call me ignorant about this or that but I hate politics and I hate this.

My best friend from back in San Antonio is coming to visit me in November so I am totally psyched about that! We plan on spending some time here in Pittsburgh and then going to Baltimore to visit some shrine to Divine or something and finally we'll end up in Virgina to see Kaya at some anime convention! We've seen Kaya before in California during PMX and he puts on an amazing show so I can't wait to see him again!
I just can't wait to have guests period. I know another friend is coming to see us in the end of December/ beginning of January. Also, my roommates mother and some of her friends are coming and also my own mother during Spring Break! whee!

Well, until next time!

A New Day

I've created this blog as a means to just start a collection of, what I think is the most important time in my life (or unlife :P)
I've just relocated myself to a new place. It's completely different from my old home and I'm quite excited about it!
I was born and raised a Texas girl, a southern Texas girl to be exact and now here I am up north in Pennsylvania!
I know I'm not the first person in the world to relocate but it's really important to me.
I always said I would move out of Texas when I was in High School which was almost 5 years ago! I'm here 22 years old and I've finally done it!
I'm so excited and I can't wait for my life to actually begin. For now I am a Dead Girl.