In the end...

Walking the streets of downtown Pittsburgh.

In approximately 9 days I will be on my way home to Texas! I am so excited! Every time I think about it I just get more and more anxious. I feel horrible making or actually asking my parents to help me move but I don't want to be here anymore. I feel myself getting more and more depressed each day. I miss my family and I miss my friends. My plan, once I get home, is as follows:
- Get a job! I have Disney all lined up to go back to but the pay is shit so I need to get a new job ASAP!
- Get my ass back into school! I really am interested in the Computer Forensics program over at one of the local JC's back home.
-Pay off my debts! (which kind of goes hand in hand with getting a job)

So hopefully things can work out as planned this time around!

Artwork done in my honor by my co-worker :P (This was in the stock room so ignore the ugly walls!)

My last day at work is on Sunday and I am so sad about leaving this job. I work with awesome people and I get pretty decent pay and that's all I'm asking for in back in Texas.



I am still completely obsessed with the Beatles. I don't know when or if it'll ever end! I kind of hope it doesn't because their music has meant so much to me this past few months.

well until I have more to say....

A photo I took last month of the first rays of sunlight of spring!

I really should be asleep by now but lately I just can't sleep at night. Well, it's not such a strange thing for me because I'm a night owl but it's making tired while I'm at work during the day.
All day today I could not stop hearing "Across the Universe" by The Beatles! It's just such a beautiful song! Right now though, I'm hearing Dead Souls by Joy Division.
I don't know what on earth I would do without music in my life. Everything I've been listening to lately has just helped me so much lately. Helped me with coping with the fact that in some ways my freedom was taken away when my car broke down. Helped me feel not so lonely in a city where I have no one to turn to. I just feel so thankful to these artists for doing what they do because without their music I would be doomed.

I'm so excited I'm going to make a counter and come back here every now and then to see how much time is left until I get to go home!!



I want to go shopping so badly! I might buy myself a little something tomorrow :)
Yesterday, I had some time to kill so I went into forever21 thinking I was just going to be buying a black beret and I walked out with the beret and a pair of skinny black jeans and I also stopped by H&M and got myself some sunglasses because my poor eyes can't stand the sun!
Well I'm off to attempt sleep!

It's been too long!

Walking in the snow

I made this blog and then abandoned it but now I'm back! I'm having a really rough time right now and I need an outlet.
So many things have been going badly for me and my family. I ask what I've done to deserve such horrendous karma. I don't think I've done anything particularly bad or evil, in fact I know I haven't!

Right now I'm helping someone out, and I don't have to do it but I choose to. Sometimes I get frustrated because I hate when people are dependent on me unless it's for a job or something. I just get tired, you know? Always though, I think of what I'd want that person to do for me if I was in the same situation and I forget about being upset. I am just so crazy hormonal right now it's well...crazy! I really just need a cigarette and I think I'll be happy, at least for the 5 minutes that I'm smoking heh.
Heavy Snow

So, in the past few months Pittsburgh was hit with crazy snow storms and we were shut in for about 3-4 days! The snow was crazy! I'm originally from Texas and have never seen snow in my entire life and then to be trapped in it for so long, oh it was totally nuts! I'm pretty much over the snow for the most part, I've never wished for spring more than I do right now.

Honestly, I can not wait until I'm back in Texas! Not to offend anyone but I hate Pittsburgh so much! If I meet one nice person who's actually from here and not just relocated here, that'll be the day! I'm a nice southern girl at heart I suppose. I'm not used to these Yankees and their rudeness :P

I miss my parents so very much right now :(

I'm just a big ball of unhappy emotions right now and I hope someone notices and doesn't selfishly try to make everything about them.

My Snow Angel...sort of!